Sunday, February 21, 2016

Time for fun and time for normalcy

I knew this weekend was going to be busy!  Friday night out with friends for dinner, Saturday to the zoo, Sunday, hike and Monday, two walks and a hair cut.

Sunday-Went to bed at  10 p.m. last night and Rory was up at 6, but came back to bed for awhile, but making noises which kept me awake.  I really wish I could sleep by myself.
Weight is going up, but still in goal range.
Breakfast-yogurt with blueberries, toast with almond butter and tea.
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-Veggie burger
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-Ribs, potato salad, frozen yogurt
Hike-5+ miles
Feelings-tired, but a nap will solve that problem. Looking forward to walking with friends. Frustrations that I cannot talk about.  Tired and going to bed early!
Light out at 9:40

Monday-Got up about 6:15.  Feeling slightly down.
Weight is down.  Eating at home helps a lot!
Breakfast-Eggs with spinach, bacon, salsa and cheese, ezekiel bread with almond butter
Snack-Trail mix
Lunch-Chicken Cobb salad
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-Chicken Pad Thai with frozen yogurt
Hike-4 miles
Feelings-Feel down, but talking to others helps.  Being truthful helps! Not saying you are fine, when you are not!  Happy that I accomplished everything I wanted to, today.
Turned off light around 10:30.

Tuesday-Back to getting up at 5:30.  Taking Mari to the train station, really makes me feel like I have a purpose and a reason for getting up early.
Weight is within range
Breakfast-Eggs with brussel sprouts and green onions, salsa, cheese, Ezekiel Bread, almond butter, turkey bacon and tea.
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-half turkey burger
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-Curry shrimp with rice and vegetables, Mocha freeze
Hike-4 miles
Feelings-feeling motivated. How do you live with someone who constantly frustrates you? I want to live in a peaceful house and I cause part of the issue.  How do I get balance between being social and getting to bed on time.
Turned off light around 11:45-Too late

Wednesday-Up at 5:30.  Didn't sleep well, but was up before the alarm.  Definitely need to take a nap
Weight at the low end of the range
Breakfast-Oatmeal, turkey bacon, tea
Snack-Trail mix
Lunch-Half tuna burger
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-Salmon TV dinner with frozen yogurt
Feelings-it feels good to get things accomplished early.  Feeling tired-going to take a nap.  Tired of being tired.  Had a surprise phone call today from Petsmart.  I have a job interview on Friday.  My first reaction was nerves.  I have not been through an interview in many years.  Thankful to Patty from my small group, that I feel more confident.

Thursday-Up a little before the alarm would have gone off at 5:30.
Weight stayed the same and still within range
Breakfast-Cereal with blueberries, a banana, turkey bacon and tea
Snack-trail mix
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-Chicken with zucchini and other vegetables and rice, frozen yogurt
Feelings-Feeling depressed on the way to hike, felt happier after the walk, talked to a friend and decided to start cooking dinner as part of my morning routine, which helped later in the day. Accomplished what was on my to do list.

Friday-Woke up to the alarm.
Weight is at the lower end of the range.
Breakfast-goat yogurt with blueberries and bananas, turkey bacon, Ezekiel bread with almond butter and tea
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-Veggie burger
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-Salmon, kale, diced tomatoes, green onions, zucchini and mushroom risotto with yogurt
Feelings-good start to a Friday-several positive things happened, tired, I like cooking dinner earlier in the day, so I don't have to rush to make dinner and go pick up Mari or go to a hike.  Had an interview that went very well.  Had some sadness regarding Sweet Pea from a sympathy card
Early to bed.

Saturday-Got up around 6, before the alarm went off.
Weight is staying at the low end of the range
Breakfast-eggs with onion and spinach, turkey bacon, Ezekiel bread with almond butter and tea
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-turkey and provolone cheese sandwich from Jersey Mike's and milk tea from 85 degrees
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-Chicken fried rice with vegetables
Feelings-up early to get to a hike, which was nice with a new group of people.  It was nice to be out by myself for awhile. Nice to stay home in the afternoon, while Rory is upstairs.  Getting things accomplished. Tired and got a nap.
Early to bed.


Sunday-Salmon Salad with Bell Peppers
Monday-Turkey, Fried Rice and Bell Peppers
Tuesday, Whole Wheat Spaghetti with Mushrooms and turkey bolognese.
Wednesday-Chicken, zucchini, diced tomatoes and rice
Thursday-Chicken, spinach, mushrooms and rice



Sunday, February 14, 2016

Where are we going?

There have been a couple changes since the first of the year.  Mari started a new job and yesterday, we had to put Sweet Pea to sleep.  I was stating, about the middle of last week, that I felt stalled, but I am not.

Sunday-I went to bed early last night and woke up between 4 and 5.  Finally got up about 6:30.  My one morning without the alarm.
My weight dropped and is in the lower end of the range.
Breakfast-goat yogurt with blueberries and bananas, Ezekiel bread with almond butter and bacon
Snack-trail mix
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-Chili Mac with frozen yogurt
Exercise-5.25 miles
Feelings-It felt strange this morning to come downstairs and not see Sweet Pea, as well as look in Mari's room and not see her.  I know I will get used to this eventually.  Time to move forward.  Tonight, when we got home, I looked over at the couch and expected to see her and of course, did not.  The girls have been in tears still and I have not had that feeling.  I know we all grieve differently.  I have always been a realist and I know she is gone.  I miss her, but I know she is in a better place.  After 14 years, we are so used to having her with us and her habits.
Lights turned out at 10:25.

Monday-Woke up before the alarm.  Really did not sleep the best.  Could not get comfortable.
My weight is staying in the lower end of the range.
Breakfast-cereal with blueberries and bananas, turkey bacon and tea
Snack-Trail mix
Lunch-Chicken salad
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-Salmon TV dinner
Walk-4.4 miles
Feelings-feeling sad, which is part losing Sweet Pea and feeling like there is nothing left in this house.  Mari and Marissa feel the same way and we are all ready to move on.  Now I need to find a job, even though it may be part time.  I am going to get a part time job and work on starting a walking tour business.

Tuesday-Couldn't remember if I turned on the alarm and then realized I did.  Got up a little before 5:30.  A nap is definitely in the cards today.
My weight is staying in the lower end of the range
Breakfast-hard boiled egg on toast with cheese
Snack-Trail mix
Lunch-chicken salad
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-chicken, zucchini, mushrooms, diced tomatoes and rice and a cookie
Exercise-4+ mile walk
Feelings-I am not going to let fear and laziness keep me from moving forward.  I need to be positive. I have to remember I have lost 70+ pounds and I can do what I put my mind to.  I did fill out an application for PetSmart, plus I did go over and introduce myself to the person who hires.  It felt really good to take a step forward.  Walk was good and it is nice to stay after for social.

Wednesday-Woke up to the alarm at 5:30.  I know this is going to be a crazy morning!
My weight is staying in the lower end of the range.
Breakfast-Took myself out to breakfast to Cinnamon Productions! Had eggs with cheese and vegetables and sourdough toast and a Mint Mocha.
Lunch-shrimp salad
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-fish burrito
Feelings-chaotic as Mari had to be at the train at 6:30 and Marissa had to be at the dentist at 8. Finally got away from the dentist at 9 and then got breakfast. Back to the dentist to pick up Marissa up at 10:45.Got an errand accomplished.Nap time. I want to start a walking tour business and I am getting impatient and I really need to slow down and do this the right way.  Chaos!  It helped to go to small group and focus on something else.
Light out at 10

Thursday-Woke up before the alarm!
My weight is staying in the lower end of the range.
Breakfast, eggs, veggies and rice with tea and turkey bacon.
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-pizza and soup at CPK
Snacks-trail mix-one about 4:45 and one while walking
Dinner-chicken burrito from Sharkey's and frozen yogurt
Feelings-going to only focus on my photography, the walking tour business, exploring and Sunset hikes and my health.  I need to stop feeling scattered.  What is important?  Headed for Naples to do a dry run of a walk I am going to do for Sunset hikes. Tired when I got home.  Got things done and rested.  Did not feel like eating dinner at 5, so put off until after hike.  I could tell my blood sugar got low during the hike, so that is when I had the second snack.  It was nice to join in on the festivities at Sharkey's.
Turned off the light at 11:45.

Friday-forgot to turn on the alarm, so Mari/Rory woke me up about 6.  Flew out of bed to take Mari to the train.
My weight is staying within the range
Breakfast-eggs, cheese, kale, Ezekiel bread with almond butter
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-Meat loaf sandwich
Snack-trail mix
Dinner- out for Afghanistan food
Feelings-feeling positive today, as well as frustrated. One of my least favorite things is to work on finances. It was nice to get out with friends for dinner.  This is going to be a busy weekend with a lot of going out!

Saturday-up at 6:30. It was nice to sleep in this morning. Going to the zoo today.
My weight is going up, but still within range.
Breakfast-cereal with blueberries,bananas,turkey bacon and tea
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-out-chicken salad,chicken strips and French fries
Snack-trail mix and soft serve ice cream
Dinner-grilled cheese with bacon and spinach and yogurt
Feelings-enjoyable day at the zoo.  Too many people and too much traffic.  Exhausted.


Monday-Chicken Pad Thai with noodles
Tuesday-Shrimp Curry
Thursday-Chicken with Ziti
Friday-Salmon, zucchini, kale, onion, diced tomatoes and rice
Saturday-Chicken Fried Rice


Monday-two walks

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Month end-check in

So far for the month of January, I am down 2 pounds.  I know my body will level off eventually

Sunday-Finally got up around 6:30.  I catnapped from about 5 to about 6:30.  Not the greatest sleep, as I was worried about Sweet Pea.  Sweet Pea is a diabetic cat and we ran out of insulin last night for various reasons.
Breakfast-Eggs with spinach and onion, turkey bacon and tea
Snack-Trail mix
Lunch-Leftovers from yesterday of salad.
Snack-frozen yogurt
Dinner Salmon TV dinner
Feelings-tired of Rory's complaining. Concerned about Sweet Pea, as we ran out of her insulin last night. I was hoping that the vet had sent the paper work to the pharmacy, which did happen.I really need to trust in God. Feeling sad. 
Turned off the light around 10.

Monday-Got up a little before 5:30.  Glad to be back on normal morning routine.
Weight is staying with range
Breakfast-Eggs with bell peppers and onions, turkey bacon and tea
Snack-trail mix
Lunch- left over salad from the weekend
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-chicken with mushroom risotto and green beans and frozen yogurt
Exercise-4.6 miles
Feelings-decided this morning to not turn off the fan and not turn on the coffee maker until I was almost out the bedroom door, so I did not have to hear Rory talk.  I know that sounds mean, but I enjoy quietness and peacefulness in the morning.  Feeling very frustrated about many things. It was really nice to be able to talk to a friend. Feeling very blessed.
Turned off the light at 11 pm

Tuesday-Woke up a couple of minutes before the alarm went off at 5:30 a.m.
Weight is staying within range
Breakfast-Cereal with bananas and blueberries, turkey bacon and tea
Snack-Trail mix
Lunch-Meat Loaf sandwich
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-Chicken, broccoli and macaroni and cheese and frozen yogurt
Feelings-Tired, definitely will be taking a nap.  Enjoying editing pictures and having a quiet house, as Rory went to a movie.  Chaotic as Mari's train was late in the morning, therefore her train coming home was going to be later and we have a hike to get to. Usually Mari texts me when she gets to Union Station, and she didn't and I was concerned. She was on the train, she was supposed to be on. A friend had a car issue that I had to help with and therefore I missed the hike. The things that happened were relatively minor and gotten taken care of.
Light went out around 11

Wednesday-woke up when the alarm went off at 5:30.  Rory had awakened me a couple of times during the night, which did not help.
Weight is staying within range.
Breakfast-Eggs with bell peppers, Ezekiel bread with almond butter and turkey bacon and tea.
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-veggie burger sandwich
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-tacos from Chipotle and frozen yogurt
Feelings/things I got from my readings-Make a decision.  Just say yes or no, and don't keep changing your mind.  Make the best decision you can and trust God with the results.  Be decisive!  Whatever I need to do in life, just do it.  Keep it simple and trust God with the results. 
Lights out atm10:30.

Thursday-woke up when the alarm went off at 5:30
Weight is at the low end of the range.
Breakfast-quiche,turkey bacon,tea
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-pizza,salad and iced tea
Snack-Trail mix
Dinner-shrimp,chicken kabob,salad and rice and baklava,
Exercise-4.5 mile walk
Feelings Marissa and I went to San Diego. Fun and tiring day. I wish Rory could handle household stuff,instead of getting me in the middle of things, especially when I am not home.
Light off at 10:15

Friday-woke up before the alarm at 5:25.
Weight is within the range and still at the low end.
Breakfast-Egg Burrito with turkey bacon and tea.
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-Half turkey burger
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-Shrimp and chicken,egg rolls.rice and veges with ice cream
Feelings-Tired and sad, but dealing with reality.  We may have to put Sweet Pea to sleep.  This morning she is having labored breathing.  I took her to the vet and they put her on oxygen.  They are doing blood and urine analysis.  She is 16 and has been dealing with diabetes and kidney issues.  I do not want her to suffer.  Went out to dinner with friends, which was really nice, plus very needed.

Saturday-woke up at 6, thinking we were going to LA, but there were other things going on that changed that decision.
Weight is within the range.
Breakfast-Egg pizza with turkey bacon and tea
Snack-trail mix
Lunch-Half tuna sandwich
Snack-trail mix
Dinner-chicken, vegetables, rice with salsa
Feelings-sad, but knowing I am making the right decision. This is hard.I had to make the decision to put Sweet Pea to sleep.  I am at peace with the decision I made.  I will miss her.  This has been a hard day.  Most of the day my emotions were pretty good, but tonight, it has been hard.  I, also, am not used to staying home all day on Saturday, so I fee somewhat lost.  
Turned off the light at 9:59


Sunday-Chili Mac
Tuesday-Chicken, zucchini, diced tomatoes, rice
Wednesday-Fish Burritos
Thursday-Chicken Mushroom Risotto
Friday-Shrimp couscous
Saturday-Grilled cheese with Bacon and Spinach


Thursday-two walks
Saturday-possible trip to the zoo